Spring has been stealthy
and late this year on Hickory Nut Ridge. March was cold—record cold apparently
for Kentucky—and a complete reversal from last year’s record high warmth in the
70s and 80s (which also brings many storms––something we've not had yet this year). So the Bradford pears, always the first to bloom, did not come out
until early April and the forests remain brown and bleak, while the wild red
buds and dogwood have yet to emerge.
It has been a busy winter.
In addition to working on several books, which I will soon be pitching, I have
applied for a few jobs in public relations and, my first love, historic
preservation—both professions where I was once gainfully employed. I remain
hopeful about one job in particular but my “Plan B” of staying a full time
farmwife, mother and writer is fine, too: even though it does not help pay most
of the bills on a growing cattle farm. The reality is, when you’ve left the
work force to be a mother, even though you may remain as a published writer,
there isn’t a huge amount of interest in your return [I wonder what Facebook’s
Sheryl Stanberg, author of Lean In,
would say about this reality.] Not only are you competing with others your age
in a diminished job market, there are 15-20 years of people younger than you
who are eager and, well, younger. This is the reality of middle age—at a time
when many of my peers are at the height of their professions, I am willing to
enter back in for less pay or prestige.
Fortunately, published writing seems to
remain an ageless profession—all it demands is talent and/or marketability and
a persistently annoying modern term called “platform.” [Which is why, in the
past decade or so, many popular bloggers have become published writers—I
started blogging after publishing articles and while writing my first
contracted book—a bit of a departure, but there you are. I blog because I enjoy
it, if for no other reason—and am delighted when people read them.] And, let’s
not forget the biggest asset to a writer or to any pursuit: perseverance, which really, much of the
time, would seem to trump talent.
Cows grazing on new pastures that we are leasing down the road for our growing herd. |
I have not blogged much
in the past eight months because we are still without DSL on our ridge and my
PowerBook is hopelessly slow so it is difficult to blog on my slow server––it takes a long time to post a blog with photos! [I cannot
even upload Firefox because my laptop, at the ripe age of seven, is considered
a relic—the guys at the Mac Store in Lexington laughed when I brought it in for
advice. It was likely made before they were out of diapers.] My entire laptop
experience has been symbolic of my life right now: a bit slow, creaky and,
apparently, very much out-of-date. Emailing on iCloud is even a
challenge—again, laborious to upload emails or to send them—so I read my
emails, respond briefly if I have to, and then usually type or pen longer
missives via Snail Mail. How very retro! But delightful—it has been great to be
away from the noise, chatter, and occasionally obnoxious clamor that is the
Internet and Facebook (or Twitter, for which I refuse to sign up—mainly for the
same reasons I refuse to get anything other than a track phone for travel
emergencies: I’m just not that important.).
My chickens are laying again but some are getting older and in perimenopause, no doubt. |
I recommend an Internet and/or
social network sabbatical for the purposes of actually living or savoring your
life or for creating something within it. And what is it in this virtual realm
that compels us to crow about everything all of the time (but I should mention
that my hens are laying again after a long hiatus and that my roosters are
finally crowing)? I am also proud to say that the oft used “I’ll Google that”
is no longer in my daily dialogue and that I can now better appreciate my
husband’s resolve to remain a Luddite. It’s just easier to stick with what we
know and to eschew the rapid-fire fervor of the latest, always evolving
technology. I believe we will experience an “Arts and Crafts” revival in the
decades to come—the current artisan and “slow food” movement is testament to
this. All of that said my laptop, while not so good for the Internet these
days, still makes an excellent portable word-processing device, so I shall keep
it.
One can never have enough gnomes around! |
I have missed blogging
for the connective fiber of it as well as the occasional virtual scrapbooking
of my life (as “scrapbook crafty” I am not—and I haven’t even been on Pinterest
in months, either). My camera has also not been cooperating, so I’m going to
have to send it somewhere and will likely be reliant upon my extensive photo
archive for future blogging in the meantime. The photos in this blog entry are
the last gasp from my faulty lens that works when it wants to in fits and
starts (ok, I admit—it got dropped a while ago, so I can’t blame Canon).
Anna, right, and her daughter Norma amidst the tea spread at our Chick-a-Biddy Cottage at Valley View Farm. |
A chance to use my lemon fork! |
On April 7th I
hosted a 60th surprise birthday tea party for my Old Order Mennonite
friend Anna. It was a great reason to get the cottage in order and to do some
cooking and entertaining, which I do enjoy, forgetting the fact that I was more
or less comatose for two days afterwards (and that I was reliant upon Trader
Joe’s for some of my savory items). This will likely be a long aside (see, I
still am not a brief blogger after seven years!) but people who cater, bake or
cook professionally—from scratch—have my complete respect.
I am reminded of the
forty-year plus dedication of my baker friend (and part-time boss for ten
years) Robert Koerber who, five days a week, without fail, got up at 2am to
prepare his homemade dough, breads, donuts and pastries for his 7am opening.
For over three decades his admirers came from near and far to his Kernel Bakery
in Peterborough, New Hampshire and, during the 1970s, at his Cyrnel Bakery in
Forest Row, England. I enjoyed Robert’s discussions on Rudolf Steiner’s
Anthroposophical beliefs as much as I did his ricotta cheese Danish, fat chocolate
croissants, and tasty fig bars—to name but a few delights—outdone only by his
seasonal chocolate éclairs, on Saturdays in the colder months, with their
sublime vanilla custard filling.
An angel on an early headstone at the Abbey of Gethsemani. |
During Holy Week I
treated myself to a five-day silent retreat at the Abbey of Gethsemani in
Trappist, Kentucky—a belated 50th birthday present to myself. This
is the subject of a future article and book chapter so I don’t want to blog too
much about it but I highly recommend the experience. The day before Easter I
was delighted to be a participant in my friend Jamie Aramini’s first “Kentucky
Green Living Fair” in nearby Somerset [see her fabulous blog, Sustainable Kentucky]—now to be an annual event. There I signed and sold The Pantry, met many interesting people
and some familiar faces, and reacquainted myself with some other Kentucky
writer friends. It was a great contrast to having been more or less silent the week
before.
Every year I welcome the
Earth’s renewal and spring’s return with the open arms of Persephone’s mother,
Demeter (and how I miss my daughter who often returns to the farm for a visit
at this time of year after a long winter working in the ski industry—not this
year, sadly, I don’t believe, as she is recovering from a wrist break in
Colorado and is working so hard, right into the summer season—she is almost 25
and I am so very proud of her!). The world is warming and things are beginning
to grow. I become more sociable, less introspective, and ready to be in the
dirt. Every day now, after school and on their Easter break, our boys, 15 and almost 13, help their Dad with farm chores––we are so proud of their responsible and hard-working natures.
Boris and Natasha, to whom I am quite partial, at seven weeks. |
Boris, Natasha & Chumley. |
Mama Mittens–aka "BooBoo Kitty" so named by my husband! |
We have five, now eight-week old, kittens ready to roam our barns with
their Mama (who, after she wandered up our driveway last October, has used up
two of her nine lives in the past few months—I am in awe of both her will to
survive and her natural mothering instincts after her unplanned pregnancy—but
aren’t they all in the animal kingdom?). Calves are being born daily. Our
chortling mockingbird and bluebirds have returned to join the chorus of spring
and I’ve even heard the barn swallows as they swoop about looking to nest in
our now-empty hay shed. [The fields are greening up just in time for hungry
cattle.]
The recent comet at sunset soars into the depths. |
It is that reaffirming time of year that whispers life is good, that
there is profound beauty—and immense order—in the natural realm, and for no
other reason except to proclaim that **God
is great, Sabu.
You come back when you're ready!
Catherine
**A favorite line from a
favorite film—and a favorite book, Out of
Africa by Isak Dinesen—although I don’t recall the actual line in the book.
I know it's a lot of work for you to blog, Catherine, but I enjoy it so much when you do.
ReplyDeleteI sure do miss the Kernal Bakery. (It was seven minutes from my front door to theirs, when we lived in NH.)Everyone in my circle would laugh because I often, and always at the holidays, tried to pass off their goodies as my own. Trust me when I say no one ever believed me... Destiny
It was so nice to meet you at the Green Living Fair and thanks again for giving the Ky Food Bloggers a signed copy of your book. Glad to see you blogging again as well!
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely love this Mom! Adorable kitten pictures xox
ReplyDeletehere is an idea some bloggers do; virtual "postcards" as a picture and short message...
ReplyDeleteAlso thank you so much for the great pictures, I really enjoyed them- it seemed each picture told a story- also they make the most beautiful wallpaper for my computer, brightening my day! You are the best, thanks again!