This month I read a short, delightful Christmas story by
Donald Hall (with beautiful woodcuttings by Mary Azarian).
Christmas at Eagle Pond is the author’s imagined holiday with his
grandparents over the stretch of Christmas week in the early 1940s at their New
Hampshire farm—a Christmas he never shared with them because he only came up
with his parents from Connecticut each summer. Hall has carried these memories
with him, over 70 years later, of his grandparents’ farm: their routines, the
foods they ate (his grandmother’s pantry!), the daily chores and the many
country experiences and conversations that he shared with his family.
When I
was a child I dreamt and daydreamed of my grandparents’ own New Hampshire farm
throughout the winter: where we too would only visit in the summer. I imagine
that their Christmases—after their children and grandchildren lived elsewhere—were
quiet and marked by the early morning service at their Episcopal church, a few
simple gifts (most likely books to each other or favorite plants tended in
their own greenhouse), an easy dinner, and quiet moments around the fireplace
after chores.
My grandparents, despite their illustrious upbringings around New
York City, spent their last thirty years together on 1790s New England farm
where they raised their six children amongst an assortment of animals—including
milking cows, horses, chickens, geese—and acres of produce. They were among the
first wave of “back-to-the-landers” and their farmhouse contained the scattered—and
often delightfully tattered—remains of generations: old portraits, assorted
silver and china, rooms full of old, well-loved books and even the precious
porcelain “courting cups” that had been a regular gift from my
great-grandfather to his future wife. There was a cavernous barn with an attached
annex and summer kitchen—evocative of the “Big House, Little House, Back House,
Barn” motif that was predominant in many New England farmsteads—and fragrant pinewoods,
fields and brooks surrounded it. The farm was a magical place, despite the sorrows
that did occur there, and will be forever a part of me. We had our own
Christmases there after my parents divorced, my grandfather died, and we moved
from Ohio with my mother in 1974.
|
Eli's creche scene (2011). |
My mother’s Christmases were probably a bit
more elaborate than those of her parents or her own childhood—but still with an
infused simplicity and beauty. The tree was the focus—filled with handmade
ornaments from friends and older glass balls and tinsel. We brought out
favorite decorations from our Ohio days but mostly it was the greenery that I
remember: the red winterberries, the boughs, and bits of the forest that my
mother gathered from the pinewoods and assembled with her own flourishes. We
attended the midnight Christmas Eve service and spent the entire next day in our
pajamas—even having our Christmas feast that way (a tradition I continue today
where flannel is de rigueur at the dinner table). The sounds of our Christmas
were the constant low music from the hi-fi (usually Andy Williams, the Kingston
Trio, and other favorites) and the crackle of the fire in the woodstoves. In
future years, before I was married and when I was working in Boston, I would
return back to the city, open my suitcase and welcome the cold, fresh air and
pungent wood smoke that had been encased with my belongings. It was the tonic
of home.
|
Gertie, Emmet and Cora at Christmas (2010) • They are now back in the wild. |
|
Last year's tree (2011) at the double-wide. There will be fewer gifts this year, by choice. |
So here is to a Merry (quiet) Christmas or whatever your tradition at
this time of year—we are hoping to light a large bonfire around the Winter
Solstice, too. And these words have meant much as we've simplified things a great deal in our holidays this year. [And be sure to check back in a few weeks for a special New Year's greeting, too.]
You come back when you're ready!
Catherine
NOTE:
Donald Hall, a former United States Poet Laureate, has written many books over the years including my favorites
String Too Short to Be Saved,
Ox-Cart Man,
Lucy’s Christmas (the former a memoir and the latter two for children) and some recent memoirs about his life shared with, and after, his wife and fellow poet, Jane Kenyon (I highly recommend her poetry, also). Since the mid-1970s he has lived on his grandparents’ New Hampshire farm where he continues to write.